FOR HOW LONG MORE!?…SICKENING!
- ~MeganMutheu~
- Mar 8, 2022
- 5 min read
Her sharp screams tore through my skin and crushed my heart,
My heart could not take it and so I broke down.
Tears coming out of my eyes uncontrollably, silently at first,
Then I could feel this heavy lymph-like feeling in my chest and I just began crying so loudly that I could feel my heart beat so fast as my body shook in anxiety, somehow I was not breathing normally.
I was triggered, disgusted, scared, actually all these terms are understatements of what I was really feeling if you ask me.
I mean how inhumane are you to hear those screams and just continue robbing her of her dignity just like that.
How did we get here? How did we get to a point where such things happen in broad daylight with no man able even one bit to say no to such injustice?
16+ men and not even one to stand up for her.
All they could do was take videos and continue to rob her of her dignity by making her nightmare go viral.
Honestly, I am sitting here typing this with tears in my eyes, trying to comprehend the mind process of these men.
Filthy hands on her body; her thighs and her breasts,
She was rendered powerless, violated in her own car after leaving home on a typical day of her life only to go through an experience that would change her life.
I have replayed this event in my head multiple times since yesterday and I am thinking for all these 16+ men to have violated her, they had to go in turns.
I mean hear me out, each grabbing, touching, and torturing to their pleasure and then walking away for the next person to do the same thing.
Filthy and disgusting men with no hearts, all followed in an exercise that was began by one person I assume that just looked at this lady dressed in clothes that were comfortable to her no matter how short, and it was decided that she deserved to be punished like that for hitting all because she hit their fellow boda boda rider.
Crap! I call this crap. The right thing to do was to let the policemen handle the situation.
They had no right to literally take matters into their filthy hands and cause a scar that will forever haunt her. The trauma she did not even deserve one bit.
Imagine if this event happened at night, we all know the story would have been worse!
Then some people have the strength to ask why this is a gender issue when they very well know that if this was a man, no one would strip them of their dignity like that.
Honestly, these bias mindsets need to seriously catch up with reality.
Sadly, this is only a part of the million stories that almost everyone can talk about.
Experiences that we have all been through almost everyday because of male species that just choose not to keep their hormones and their hands to themselves.
These male species tend to feel so entitled to touch every female they see walking around in revealing clothes.
I can count up to 8+ times when someone catcalled me for looking pretty or a tout tried to touch any of my body parts or even times when grown-ass men tried to touch me in matatus on my way home. Sickening!
It’s sad that my list goes on and on and I am sure most of you completely resonate with such.
It is sad that gone are the times when we were raised up respecting men in our society and gone are the times we looked up to men as protectors and shields.
My heart breaks each day I have to look at myself before leaving the house just to make sure I am not dressed in a way that may jeopardize my safety and boundaries during the course of my day.
We are pissed, we are mad, we are angry and we are tired!
The narratives just keep on getting worse with time, from the days of our great grandmothers to the current generation of women.
We are disrespected on a daily basis and apparently, we are somehow expected to be quiet about it and just bend and conform.
No! Never. We shall not be silenced as we watch ourselves, people we love, and fellow females going through sexual assault or any sexual abuse whatsoever.
Girls and women of all ages deserve to be respected minus this whole notion of, “She’s someone’s sister, mother, friend, girlfriend, or whatever!”
I have seen females end their lives as they could not handle the emotional and mental baggage let alone the physical baggage that came with that one sexual assault they had to go through.
The effects are enormous but either way we still continue to be robbed of glitter that shines brightly in us in return we are left dim and broken.
It is our right, our choice for us to decide whether or not to give it out. We should not be forced.
We will never really finish this conversation because a lot has to be said and done but till then, YOU NEED TO STOP DOING THIS!
I look forward to a time where all this will be over, a time hope will be sooner than expected!
Here’s to strong women.
May we know them.
May we be them.
May we raise them.
Hello there mates!😊❤
Happy International Women's day to all my lovely, beautiful and phenomenal women out there🦋❤Sending you all your flowers and so much love🤗🦋.
I hope we are all doing well though✨🤗.
Let me just say that I don't even have an excuse for my inconsistency but I have just been lazy with a splash of busy but you know I am working on it, I promise.
Regardless, I have been doing great, not really as happy at times but you know someone wise and special said to me, " The secret is to sit with the darkness without wanting it to leave and to sit with the light without wanting it to stay."
I am slowly learning to to let all my seasons and phases come and go as they are while I just react to them however I am needed to😊. I am so happy to be back though🤗🦋.
🔆P.S: Shoutout to everyone that is not at their best is trying to be patient with themselves, to everyone that has too many friends but not one person they can call home or a safe space and to everyone that is working on forgiving themselves and being a little more kind and loving to themselves. Sending you so much love and positive energy as you navigate through it🤗❤. You are doing great, baby steps as always✨.
My jams for the past two weeks have been around: Kinoti's Safe Space and Milele, Cover me in Sunshine by P!nk and Willow Sage Hart and definitely Calm Down by Rema.
I've been watching Euphoria, Shadowhunters and Inventing Anna so I definitely recommend.
🤎So today's entry definitely had to be an interruption of my previous entry because I like to believe that I write when I am in my feels. I belong in the category of humans that feel a little too much than everyone else so this is where I bring it all. As always, safe space my lovelies!🔆😊. The whole Forest road occurrence really broke my heart and I haven't been okay since I saw that video, and you guys can definitely agree with me on that. Hence, I decided to just come here and rant about it and just get it off my chest.
It's about time we smash and kill this bias patriarchy. All this has to stop on a serious note!
I can't even begin to tell you guys just how the thought of giving birth to a girl scares the hell out of me because mimi I just can't deal with all that stress of thinking what she will have to endure each day😪.
Deep down I am just hoping that we don't have to get there!
Thank you for all the love and I hope you enjoy today's entry✨!
So much love for you all tribe❤🦋!
God loves you🥰❤!
You are doing great❤!
I am proud of you🦋🥰!
Love and Light!✨❤!
A woman with a voice is by definition a strong woman. But the search to find that voice can be remarkably difficult.
Feeling is mutual😢very sickening,, hoping for better days ahead😊
Beautiful work🥰 thank you for addressing this issue the only way we writers only know how to. #Breakthebias
No woman should ever go through what the lady went through at Forest road. It is unacceptable! My heart bleeds.
Thank you baby for writing about this. And those men, they should rot in prison!