Keep going, you haven't seen it yet.

~MeganMutheu~
Dec 20, 2021
7 min read

Updated: Dec 21, 2021

Have you been praying and you still have no answers? Have you been pouring out your heart for so many years? Have you been hoping that things would have changed by now? Have you cried all the faith you have through so many tears?

Don't forget the things that He has done before, And remember He can do it all once more.

It's like the brightest sunrise, Waiting on the other side of the darkest night, Don't ever lose hope, hold on and believe, Maybe you just haven't seen it, just haven't seen it yet, You're closer than you think you are, Only moments from the break of dawn, All His promises are just up ahead Maybe you just haven't seen it, just haven't seen it yet Maybe you just haven't seen it, just haven't seen it yet Maybe you just haven't seen it

He had the solution before you had the problem He sees the best in you when you feel at your worst So in the questioning don't ever doubt His love for you 'Cause it's only in His love that you'll find a breakthrough, oh

It's like the brightest sunrise Waiting on the other side of the darkest night Don't ever lose hope, hold on and believe Maybe you just haven't seen it, just haven't seen it yet You're closer than you think you are Only moments from the break of dawn All His promises are just up ahead Maybe you just haven't seen it, just haven't seen it yet Maybe you just haven't seen it, just haven't seen it yet Maybe you just haven't seen it

He is moving with a love so deep Hallelujah for the victory Good things are coming even when we can't see We can't see it yet, but we believe that He is moving with a love so deep Hallelujah for the victory Good things are coming even when we can't see We can't see it yet, but we believe that He has a solution.

Danny Gokey - Haven't Seen It Yet - YouTube

Hi mates🦋🤎,

Happy holidays and I hope we are doing well😊. Sijui how many of us have gotten this kanairo flu but I hope we are keeping warm and taking our meds and concoction to get better. Quick recovery to each one of us, including me juu heeh since last Sunday napambana tu na hii homa na sauti ya batman😂😭. To be honest guys, I really don't know what to say because I have not been really consistent with my blog entries but I'd say that it's just been one of those phases for me where I just want to lazy around because there's like zero energy in me to do the things I would normally do. Trust me guys, it takes so much strength sometimes to do normal things like leaving your bed or showering or changing your beddings and doing your laundry but baby steps all the way my loves😊🔆. On the bright side though, this week imma be here a lot to compensate for the undone entries🤭✨.

Also, can someone explain how Christmas is already here with us na hata sina plans tbh😂🙌 I might just sleep or go out with friends juu heeh shags issa no-no for me, si kwa ubad though😂❤.

Before I forget, shout out to all the people out there who are going through loss, heartbreak, financial problems, or any sought of tough situation during this celebrating season. Praying and rooting for you to find peace and breakthrough and of course, Jesus loves you and has your back, remain hopeful😊❤.

📌P.S: I have had an amazing weekend you guys. I have been so happy and recharged from Friday up to Sunday🎉🥰. Friday was all about a Kesha by kkrewbs that was nothing but all sorts of amazing and to top it off I attended with friends that mean the world to me so it was all together a beautiful experience😊💯. (I highly recommend) Saturday was a whole vibe as well because I attended a movie premiere in Limuru with amazing humans as well. The movie was called Mwanga and the starring actor is a really close human to me so it was really great to see him just do his thing like he always does🔥🙌. I had so much fun guys heeh🔥✨.

Then Sunday I just slept in all day juu I was so exhausted and my flu just multiplied for some weird reason😂😭.

Song of the week for me was definitely Haven't seen it yet as you saw above because this song just does something to me😊🔆and of course 'Kesho kutwa' issa must listen to each day🤭.

🔆Ladies and gents, that's how it all began, this was the last thing on my previous entry so let's just pick it up from here shall we😊.

So, tribe, I had previously mentioned that I had self-harmed the day before my mum took me to this psychiatrist and the thing is, uuhm he just started asking about my wound and all while treating me and I just looked at him not really knowing what to tell him or rather where to start explaining myself from. At that moment, I remember just crying so bad and all I could think to myself was, "I mean he's just a complete stranger, so even if I tell him and he chooses to judge me then I'll see him again anyway." With that, I just poured out my heart to this complete stranger, crying and shaking so hard and my head just spinning in pain as everything I told him felt like I was reliving that exact moment all over again. I honestly don't know what exactly I told him as he just sat there listening and writing down stuff on some notebook. Sooner or later, I was done, or rather my mouth and mind didn't know what more to say because there was still so much that was unsaid.

He just looked at me and said, "Strong is an understatement to define you but thank you so much for sharing." Those few words went a long way for me because it was the first time in 9 years that I had decided to put my heart and emotions out there for the world to see😭. It felt like such a heavy load was taken off my back and to top it all, he didn't judge me or look at me differently or talk a behind my back or underestimate me or treat me any differently because of what I had told him and to me that's all I needed😪. To be heard, to be understood, and not to be treated as an outcast😭❗.

For the first time, I was not called an attention seeker, or a pretender or told I am lying or faking things or sidelined and misjudged or whatever it is I had gotten from society before😭.

The reason I actually decided to reach out with my story and just do this whole mental health awareness thing was because of how I was handled but I really hold nothing against them because not everyone gets to understand what you are going through.

It still pains to date because somehow the mind with always make you believe that you are maybe not enough or worthy of certain things and privileges because of what you have experienced before. It always feels like whenever you decide to open up someone with just switch up on you and use your story somewhere for gossip or whatever but I think the greatest lesson I learned is that opening up is healthy and you are not responsible for the decision they decide to make in regards to you opening up to them. Yet again, don't trust many and keep your guard up knowing that God will send the right people your way to help you in various seasons of your life and when their time is up, just let them go so that you usher in new people to your new season✨💯.

Guys, things never got better immediately even with medication and therapy because healing is one rollercoaster of events and emotions. Today it feels easy and it just looks like things are getting better but tomorrow you wake up and have absolutely zero will to keep up with life so you just want to dissapear😪❗. Days when you just want to give up because it just seems like whenever you make progress something triggers it and you are back to square one again😭. Kwanza, the way I hated it when people would tell me sijui it's all for a reason, I understand, people go through even worse situations, excuse you, comparing people's situations is not even okay because people are different and they react and respond to situations differently. I understand you are trying to encourage me or whatever, but I'd rather we just not say anything to such people because it might just make things worse. You can just hug them, or send them nice songs, or visit them or even just pray for them, these work better than some insensitive things we may say in goodwill🙂💯.

📌P.S: I mentioned depression and sadness are two different things that can be mistaken for the other but depression happens over time and the victim may not even know what is happening to them and sadness is a normal feeling we experience in our daily lives which is definitely okay😊.

🔆Signs and symptoms of depression:

Feelings of sadness, tearfulness, emptiness, or hopelessness
Angry outbursts, irritability or frustration, even over small matters
Loss of interest or pleasure in most or all normal activities, such as work, hobbies, or sports
Sleep disturbances, including insomnia or sleeping too much
Tiredness and lack of energy, so even small tasks take extra effort
Reduced appetite and weight loss or increased cravings for food and weight gain
Anxiety, agitation, or restlessness
Slowed thinking, speaking, or body movements
Feelings of worthlessness or guilt, fixating on past failures or self-blame
Trouble in thinking, concentrating, making decisions, and remembering things
Frequent or recurrent thoughts of death, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempts, or suicide
Unexplained physical problems, such as back pain or headaches