So pretty, silvery tears, golden mask!

Dear 6-year-old me,

I really hope you are doing way better than I am now, or at least you are happier.

On my end, I have been changing masks and changing my mind every day,

Coping with the pain but to be honest, I don’t know how I do it lol.

Things don't feel the same and I really miss you,

The happy, confident, competitive little girl that once was.

I am so sure you have so many questions and you probably wonder what happened to me,

Like how that girl now has to make an effort to smile or get out of bed,

How we got here and what is in store for us in the next 1 month, 1 year, or whenever!

You are probably tired of my constant tears and the pain that has been holding us back,

Tired of the scars of the past we have refused to let go,

Not because we don’t want to, but because we are still taking it in or we just have questions,

Maybe it's because it has become a huge part of our life, a norm we have adapted to yes?

All this because of a silent feeling that echoes so loudly in my dreams,

A feeling that’s like walking around in a dark mist, you can’t find your way out,

But you know what, each day, I am so proud of you for pushing yourself,

I am proud of you for always clapping for yourself for the big and small progress you make,

I am proud of you for fighting each day to love yourself and everything about you,

I am proud of you for always having that smile on your face even when your inside is broken beyond,

I am proud of you for choosing not to give up no matter how tough it was,

I am proud of you for choosing to stay and believe in the possibilities of a great and better future,

Dear 6-year-old me, thank you for being patient with me,

For always reminding me of that brave little girl I was and will always remain to be.

Dear me, that wrote this now, I love you!

Hang in there girl, you are doing great!

Hi lovelies🤎🔆!

I hope we all had an amazing week and that we are doing amazing and happy or even down and sad which btw is completely okay as I always say. It really doesn't have to be all rainbows and sunshine all the time. So for the ones who are just not there yet no matter what reason, I am sending you so much love and hugs and I pray that you get over whatever it is eventually😊❤. God loves you and he has your back for sure🦋✨. So today, I was gonna talk about #Depression as a personal experience, but events I have had within the day just made me want to give you a brief explanation on this and then let my thoughts do the thing because I feel like I have so much on my mind and this is just my safe place you know. Next week, we can definitely focus on this and have a part one and two yes?🥰🤭

But before that...you know the vibes as usual. We have a p.s as always📌💯.

🔆P.S: Ever since my previous blog, Jireh and God will work it out have been my jams. Maverick is just amazing and just so you know guys, these guys have my whole heart because one time, June 2020 just to be precise, I just wasn't doing well. Like it was really bad and I had lost every bit of hope and patience I had left because things just seemed to get worse and worse each day. So in my darkest of times, I remember crying out my heart to God (I was not really close to him or anything at the moment but I always knew there was someone with so much power somewhere and maybe he can answer me or something)but I was actually asking so many questions then I said these exact words, " Imagine God if I'm done here just tell me I chuck. I can't be going through all these. I am so tired" That same night, I was going through someone's story and I bumped into this song called Promises and that exact part I had was like an answer to these words I had said to him😭❤. I remember just breaking down and from then on, Maverick has always been it for me😭❤. I can only imagine how many other souls God has saved through them. God bless them tbh😍💯. I highly recommend😊🤎!

📌So shall we get into it, Depression is one of the most familiar mental disorders in society today. is a constant feeling of sadness and loss of interest, which stops you from doing your normal activities.

Different types of depression exist, with symptoms ranging from relatively minor to severe.

Generally, depression does not result from a single event, but from a mix of events and factors. I have suffered from depression for close to 9 years but actually found out about this 2 years ago as well. This was a result of life experiences mostly plus personality issues as well and it was really severe😪. I still suffer from this, from time to time, but I am in a way better place to cope and deal with it now😊 I am learning each day to not let it consume or define me no matter how hard that is.

I have taken depressants and trust me, it was literally the most hectic thing you can go through mentally and physically due to side effects and all that. We will most definitely catch up on this next week so stay tuned!🥰🔆I am super excited to share this with you guys✨🦋.

For today, I just want to say a few good things about the girl writing this now and to you guys as well❤:

🔆2021 is almost coming to an end I am so proud of you for coming all this way even stronger than you were😊You have grown in all aspects and I am still getting acquainted with this beautiful, smart, brilliant, and amazing young lady😍😍. She has remained resilient even when life seemed like such a maze, all through the storms and waves🔆💯! Amidst that beautiful smile, I see so much growth and so much potential that was not been explored yet👑🤍. Yet again, nothing takes away her crown... I mean she cries, she has her fair share of bad days but it doesn't stop there. She will get up and fight like the fighter she is, dust her coat, pray and stand up with so much power and strenghth🥺🤎❤️…..

(𝕋𝕓𝕙 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕟 𝕤𝕦𝕡𝕖𝕣 𝕞𝕒𝕟 𝕙𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕠𝕥 𝕟𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕠𝕟 𝕙𝕖𝕣😂🙈)

𝔸𝕝𝕝 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕠 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕚𝕤:

🍄𝔾𝕠𝕕 𝕙𝕒𝕤 𝕒𝕝𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕙𝕒𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕓𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕝𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝❤️💯!

🤎🍄𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕒𝕞𝕒𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕝𝕪 𝕥𝕒𝕝𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕤𝕠 𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕡 𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕓𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕖𝕩𝕡𝕝𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕡𝕠𝕥𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕒𝕝 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕔𝕒𝕡𝕒𝕓𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪🔆🥺💯!

🤎🍄𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕤𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕒 𝕓𝕖𝕒𝕦𝕥𝕪....𝔾𝕠𝕣𝕘𝕖𝕠𝕦𝕤 𝕓𝕒𝕓𝕖! 𝔻𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕝𝕖𝕥 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕞𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕨𝕚𝕤𝕖😍😍!

🤎🍄𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕠𝕗 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕘𝕠𝕠𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖💯😚!

🤎🍄𝔾𝕚𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕔𝕣𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕥 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕒 𝕡𝕒𝕥 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕𝕖𝕣 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕞𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕘𝕠...𝔹𝕚𝕘 𝕠𝕣 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕣 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕟 𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕙𝕠𝕟𝕖𝕪!🔆❤️🤎

📌𝔻𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝔹𝕖 𝕥𝕠𝕠 𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕕 𝕠𝕟 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗🤍🦋

🤎🍄𝕀 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕀'𝕧𝕖 𝕘𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕥𝕠 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕤𝕠 𝕚𝕞𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕪,𝔽𝕝𝕒𝕨𝕤 𝕠𝕣 𝕟𝕠 𝕗𝕝𝕒𝕨𝕤🥺❤️🤎🤍....

🔆Just to wrap this up, you are amazing in every way😊❤. No situation or experience or scar has the capability to define you.

📌Rise above the occasion and take your time to do what you garra do for yourself and for your healing process.

🔆 It takes time and patience because it's not that easy. Forgive yourself and treat yourself with so much love on days you are at your lowest❤🔆

📌Be that one person for you that you wish people were to you or that one person you are to people. You need you all day everyday!🤎💯

Thank you for all the love and I hope you enjoy today's entry✨!

So much love for you all tribe❤🦋!

You are doing great❤!

I am proud of you🦋🥰!

Love and Light!✨❤!